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i have a test tomorrow. i am not ready for it. i don't want to study for it anymore. i'm sick of being miserable. i really dislike houston. according to polina i can get tickets to london in march for $250. i really want to go, except the tickets are from jfk. i miss living in the capital of the world. i feel like my life was probably better there, although thats probably not really true. thats probably me just being unhappy right now with a whole greener grass attitude. right now in thinking of what i could do to make this better, there are certain things that come to mind, but from what i can gather, they depend more on other people than they necessarily do on myself. the whole misery loves company bit is like, getting old, too. i should probably stop hating happy people. its a good thing kathie lee gifford isn't in this room right now, although i'm not sure how happy she is anymore either. i probably shouldn't take my bad moods out on people who don't deserve it. in reality i shoudln't take them out on people who do deserve it either, but thats a bit trickier. god, i really wish that beth was working now.

i think i want to cry.

I'm back

Its been a while. Break was good. Went to San Fran. Had a kickass time. Now I'm back in Houston. It sucks. Nice to see the med school friends, though.

Good things: I got a bed. No more sleeping on the floor. I have a big closet. I got the rest of my stuff from New Orleans. My mom got me some cool maps to hang on my walls, which are currently getting framed.